urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:k0009 k0009 k0009 2008-02-14T14:18:15Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:k0009:635 2008-02-14T14:18:15Z 2008-02-14T14:18:15Z So I'm new.&nbsp; <br />I'm 24 and I'm probably the largest girl in this group.&nbsp; 5`2, and somewhere between 180-190, depending on how broken my scale is.<br />Didnt always used to be this way.&nbsp; Was rail thin my whole life.&nbsp; Did three sports at a time, two of them being running sports.&nbsp; Started gaining a little weight in HS, like alot of girls do.&nbsp; Then, started going to community college where sports arent as cool, but was still eating like an athlete, so I blew up.&nbsp; I dont look my weight, thank GOD.&nbsp; Most people are shocked to find out I weigh over 140-145, which is what most people guess.&nbsp; Im shocked they guess so low.<br />My goal body is Kelly Clarkson-ish.&nbsp; I know shes probably not thin enough for alot of you, and that my weight probably makes you sick.&nbsp; I do want to let you know that even fat girls can get boyfriends.&nbsp; Ive been dating my guy for almost 2 years, and we're getting married.&nbsp; We're going to FL in 2 weeks, so thats what spawned my fasting/restriction.<br />I dont know how much I want to lose before FL, I just want to notice a difference, and then continue when I get back.<br />Yesterday I had 3 cups of tea with honey and cayenne pepper (I heard it was a detoxing tea), water all day with diluted powdered ice tea mix and powdered energy drink, two sticks of string cheese, two hard boiled egg whites, baby carrots, a few small handfuls of trail mix, beef boullion cube soup (only 5 cal!&nbsp; I learned that little tip from lurking here the past 2 days), and then snuck a big bite of pad thai, but i chewed it all up and spit half out, so I only consumed the equivilent of a regular bite.&nbsp; All this food was stretched out throught the day.&nbsp; There may have been something else, but it was all small healthy snack-y stuff, I just cant remember if there was or not.<br />I dont think Ill be able to completely fast for a few days, just because I think I should start out slow with restriction to shrink my stomach so I wont feel as hungry as often.&nbsp; My bigggggest problem is eating when bored.<br />I also dont think I could completely fast for more than a day because Im hypoglycemic.<br />Does anyone else have problems with diabetes/hyper/hypoglycemia/thyroid/etc?&nbsp; How do you handle it?<br />Today so far Ive had beef boullion soup, half a slice of peanut butter toast, my detox tea, a cup of coffee, and a glass of water.<br /><br />H:&nbsp; 5`2<br />CW:&nbsp; 180-190 (unsure)<br />GW:&nbsp; 130-150<br />Ultimate GW:&nbsp; 125-130<br />L(adult)W:&nbsp; 117<br />HW:&nbsp; Now...